.ai ning. love&peace

Rather than changing society directly, through improving or reforming social or political systems, the object of change lies deep within the life of each individual.

Toda states: “The ‘human revolution’ I am talking about…… refers to the establishment of one’s ultimate purpose in life and working towards the perfection of self. We carry out our daily lives according to our own views on life and society. However, ‘human revolution’ refers to the change that we bring about in the way we view life, society, and the world. A fundamental change occurs in the way one has led his or her life up until that point. The ‘human revolution’ of an individual becomes apparent when he or she establishes an unwavering and absolute conviction in the eternity of life. Rather than focusing on short-term goals which apply only to one’s present lifetime, this conviction becomes the basis for the pursuit of loftier goals and greater good, in contrast to one’s previous satisfaction with the accomplishment of lesser goals and good.”

A consequence of this is that as an increasing number of individuals change for the better, so society will reflect this and change for the better, too, in an entirely natural, peaceful and lasting way. 

Ikeda: “A great revolution of character in just a single man will help achieve a change in the destiny of a nation and, further, will cause a change in the destiny of all humankind.”

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I talked to K and N today and we talked about relationships (not sure how we got on the topic…). We asked N when he was going to marry his girlfriend (in 5-7 years??). Except the way that K pronounced ‘girlfriend’, it sounded like ‘ghetto friend’, so N and I were like ‘wth’ for a bit. Lol. Quite funny, and I love K’s accent!! But anyways, K’s views on relationships was that she never imagined that she could survive being by herself because she was in a 2 year long relationship, but broke up right before coming to SUA, it wasn’t that hard and she’s managing quite fine (friends and busying herself with stuff to do). But either way, K’s view was that she’d rather polish her life first instead of latching onto another person. Plus, at the current moment, she’d feel that she’d get bored of her bf. Gosh, lol, so she wants someone who can keep up, or is similar to her.

Funny, I thought about myself and how I really did jump around from one relationship to another and never gave time to myself to just be alone —- Me Time. But, it’s not so bad when you’re busy with work, activities, hobbies, studies, etc… At the end of it all, you actually become too tired to “handle” another person (at least for me). Er, not exactly handle, but you know how some couples are always catering to each other, making sure the other is comfy/etcetc/worried what the other thinks/blahblahblah - I can’t do that (it’s not that I don’t want to-I totally can, it’s just that I just don’t) - asking if you’re alright every single day, blahblahblah. I mean, I don’t even msg people when I’m on skype (according to K) and yes, you’re right. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s just, I’ve never done it before— a bad habit so to say (I suppose it’s fitting that never on now -_-;;;). Human revolution of myself —- it’s only the beginning, yeah?

YOU!

Erm, not really, maybe? Sorta kinda? lol. 

Anyways, I loveeeee scents! But I don’t love just ANY scent, lol, I’m pretty picky. 

I like plain ones ^^b

Well, strong scented candles (like, vanilla, lavendar, rosemary, rose, etcetc) give me headaches and fruity ones just make me hungry -_-;;;, but I like fresh scents, like linen/meadow/rain er smthg like those!

Kinda nostalgic!! I have this Febreze Noticeables plug-in and I LOVEEE THIS SCENT, FREAKING LOVE IT MANNNNN xD, it’s the Meadows&Rain. Had it all 4 years at SUA. Ah~ the smell brings back shitton of memories/moments :”D 

Another note, whenever I come home early (530-630ish), Kuma always greets me, but he does it weirdly, lol… He scurries over from the room to the living room, meows and then proceeds to sprawl his body all over the floor and stay like that (it looks cute but lazy, y’kno?). But when I bend down to pet him, he jumps up and tries to bite me. Gosh, weird cat -_-; trynna act all cute and then attacking me -_-;;;  That also reminds me, whenever I’m walking around the house from room to room, Kuma likes to follow and attack my leg, lol… every single time, lol.

AHHH!! I need to pray like crazy. Like a mad woman.

Anyways on a lighter note, met up with S and had Thai, it was good catching up :) It’s been a while um… wow, exactly 2 months since we last saw to each other. Crazy @w@ But it was fun! I enjoy just randomly talking and updating about good/bad/meh shit going on in our lives, hahaha. No judgments and not too depressive!! haha. 

Totally had a food coma afterwards … then… freakin’ 1.5 hour traffic man… it didn’t even make sense… because it was all stooooooooooopppppp/go go go/stoppppppppppppppppppp/go goSTOPgogogogogoSTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP—- no accidents, just…really bad+SLOW drivers, and I got so tired that I even dozed off for 15 secs, hahahaha -_-;;;

Driving Dilemmas:
People driving “slow” in the left lane, but A cleared this up for me. Apparently, CA doesn’t have a law/rule that states that the furthest left lane is the fast lane. I used to get super irritated at drivers driving slow in the left lane. But, I guess it shouldn’t matter now lol…I’ll just pass them nicely.

As I got off the exit, I look over and see a middle-aged lady take a swig of wine straight from the bottle, lol… are you serious?? Woman, you should be banned from driving -_-; 

Needing to PEEEEE, but stuck in hour long traffic -_____-!!!! No need to explain, lol.

Random:
My body hurts like crazy. My . needs to come faster, lol, honestly, everything hurts. Emphasis on EVERYTHING. Yes, even my eyeballs hurt -_-;;; 

Sometimes, I tend to overthink/over+whatever. I was talking to S the other day and we talked about me in the past and somewhat present too. And how I just shut people out sometimes, and I just drop off the face of the earth and can’t bring myself to stop doing it. I can’t help it, but I’m working on it! My human revolution — currently work-in-progress. It’s difficult to strike up deep-conversations with people you were once close with and act as if nothing ever happened. Lol. It’s easier for quick chit-chats, but for something on a deeper level, I can’t bring myself to that… (yet?). It’s like exposing your naked flesh to a bear and hoping that the bear doesn’t gobble you up -_-; lol, bad metaphor? But ya get? hahahaha